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1. |
Scratched Record
01:23
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I've kept myself busy
I'm not sad anymore
But the only problem is
I'm not happy either.
There's a shit storm in my head
of lonely nights I dread
I guess I'm not the guy who was good with goodbyes.
I'm like a scratched record
repeating and stuttering
everything I say
needs too much understanding
On the bright side
I'm doing fine
on the flip side
that was a lie
If you understand this record
you understand me
your favorite lyrics say a lot about who you want to be
I'm like a scratched record
repeating and stuttering
everything I say
needs too much understanding
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I have personalities inside me
all competing to get out
who even am I
a large blob of self-doubt
you never call me anymore
I know I'm such a bore
but it really doesn't help
that you had to slam the door
We are so strange
dictionaries can't define us
our incredible grasp of hope
and our childish wanderlust
I stayed up late last night
just so I could cry
about things that won't matter
in a weeks time
Man, I fucked up this time
goddamn, I fucked it all up
send a sign
I'll be fine
Man, I fucked up this time
goddamn, I fucked it all up
send a sign
I'll be fine
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3. |
Ink-Stained Jeans
02:26
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Wish I could say I'm better
maybe I'm not so bad
maybe "better" isn't what I'd say
unless it's "better off dead"
Just want to be honest
with anyone who will listen
but nothing seems to help
make this pain lessen
every pencil I've broken
writing down this bullshit
of the things in my head
maybe the last thing will be a bullet
every year's the same
time and time again
maybe I'd feel better
if I had some fucking friends
So I'll pull out a pen
from my ink-stained jeans
write things in red
who cares what it means
the words look like gibberish
all written in red
pouring like blood, from my head
are the things I never said
Everything is pointless
no one seems to care
my world is falling apart
and all they do is stare
So I'll pull out a pen
from my ink-strained jeans
write things in red
who cares what it means
the words look like gibberish
all written in red
pouring like blood, from my head
are the things I never said
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4. |
Hemingway
03:18
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I've read your books
I know your name
and after all your fame
there's no one to blame
you've written for years
inspired me
now leave me be
now leave me be
I'll never amount to be
more than a memory
I miss you, Hemingway
now nothing causes you pain
I want to be
an old man at sea
I'll never be
anyone but me
How'd you end your life
I would use a knife
all the booze you drank
did it stop the aches
Another day
without Hemingway
suffering and pain
turn into blood and rain
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5. |
Asthmatic Starts Smoking
02:24
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Sometimes things aren't real
sometimes it's all a dream
somebody wake me up
pull me into reality
I regret everything
believing what you said
everything was a lie
a fantasy in my head
And she said, "cough it all up, don't be afraid.
Everything you love
is all fake."
Please don't leave me
you already know too much
you'll use it as blackmail
oh, babe, its's just a hunch
She said, "Throw all your emotions up. It's about time you know, why everyone left you and how your self esteem is so low.'
We all started smoking
coughing it all up
never ignore, forget, or love
it won't get you much
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6. |
Drained
02:32
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I'm not good
at a single fucking thing
I get down on my luck
every goddamn morning
I care too much
about things that don't matter
we all could have guessed
I'd keep getting sadder
I'm constantly changing
it's stressing me out
who we were in march
is not who we are now
I'm not the best Buddhist
I've meditated twice
I should have said yes
to every chance that I missed
I've been on my own
so many times
I forget your lies
when I look at the sky
Self esteem down the drain
what can I say
what is my purpose
how do I clean up this mess
I'm constantly changing
it's stressing me out
who we were in march
is not who we are now
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I called you up
had to write a list
to scream at you
everything that makes me pissed
I'm tired of being
a fucking pawn
in all the games
that I never won
have another drink
make it easier to think
we can drive away
we could be for days
what if we went away
came back, everything was different
all our favorite places
all went corporate
I know we're too far to drive
but you can watch me try
I'll be there to see you
not wasting any time
13 hours of driving
where are we going
who cares why or how
I won't give up now
most fun I'd ever see
highest I'd ever be
we'd sing "House of Gold"
drunk and out of key
what if we went away
came back, everything was different
all our favorite places
all went corporate
I know we're too far to drive
but you can watch me try
I'll be there to see you
not wasting any time
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8. |
No Moon In Doylestown
03:11
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No sanity can be found
in the absence of a sound
am I a bad person
have I worsened
Maybe I'm crazy
but for the first time
I'll try to write a song
with a good rhyme
I'm feeling so tired
my heart is so wired
your memory has fled
hear wind-chimes in my head
Hey, moon, where have you gone
no worries, don't be gone too long
I'm most nervous
with the people I should trust
I can feel us drift
do you think I'm nuts
I'm so tired
everything backfired
the moon's never around
don't think it'll ever be found
Hey, moon, where have you gone
no worries, don't be gone too long
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9. |
Chalfont Juice Incident
03:19
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our old friends
only lasted a summer
who would have guessed
by now we'd hate each other
definitely not the first time
probably not the last
come into my life
be gone just as fast
we held hands at midnight
looking over a bridge
the world looked so perfect so far up
all we want to do is jump
Never been religious
never even been to church
I've never been your favorite
and I'll tell you that it hurts
I want to wake up in your arms
never do you any harm
cause we are who we are
don't try to change our hearts
we held hands at midnight
looking over a city
all the colors lighting up
maybe I've had enough
let's lay in the grass
reminisce of the past
our lives were simplistic
oh how I miss it
Spoken word:
My entire body aches
inside and out
it's an unfamiliar feeling
mixed with some doubt
lyrics burst my heart open
and smash my skull
I wish I could die
I could die in a hole
when you left one last time
I carved your name in my arm
'cause no longer could anything
bring me anymore harm
who will be there for me
who will calm me down
I've been so lost for so long
I can't ever be found
I wondered why you left
after I asked you not to
it's not what's good for me
but what's better for you
go on your journey
life is an adventure
but I'd be lying if I said
"I don't miss her."
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It's a beautiful day
the rain finally went away
the sun is out
from behind the clouds
Now I'm searching for a purpose
why is my day so bright
what did I do to deserve this
everything will be alright
The days are
getting better
It's just so nice
to have this weather
my brain was so frozen
things have changed since then
I've remembered who I am
I'm not falling down again
Now I'm searching for a purpose
why is my day so bright
what did I do to deserve this
everything will be alright
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11. |
Coffee Shop Song
01:52
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My dependence on caffeine is starting to drain me
let's find a coffee shop before I start to drop
coffee and tea
are the only drinks for me
grab some Earl Grey
just to get through the day
grab an espresso
come on, come on, let's go
meet us at the Zen Den
quarter after 3
I guess I'll see you there
I'll even buy you some tea
write poetry in a coffee shop
forget everything
I'll grab my guitar
please sing with me
coffee and tea
are the only drinks for me
grab some Earl Grey
just to get through the day
grab an espresso
come on, come on, let's go
coffee and tea
are the only drinks for me
grab some Earl Grey
just to get through the day
grab an espresso
come on, come on, let's go
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12. |
I Hate My Friends Part 2
01:55
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Loitering outside of Starbucks
is starting to get old
I bet you've lost track of
all the drugs you've sold
all you care about is getting drunk
and hooking up
and bumming cigarettes off
strangers in the park
I hate to be around you
you're hardly a friend
mix vodka and iced tea
act better than me
I've been drowning my feelings
in cheese fries at Coach's
I'm tired of wasting time
with all your lame excuses
while everyone tried shrooms
I played hacky sack in my room
you're never there for anyone
why do people think you're fun
I'm tired of my friends
they're sick of me too
they'll give up on me
just wait and see
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Riley, I hope you go to college
Haily and Alex, I hope your art gets big someday
Billy, keep doing you
Andrew, I wonder what you've been up to
Brenna, keep on singing
Your voice is perfect in a world that isn't
Hey, Jack, how you been?
I miss being childhood friends
I hate my friends
But I guess it's alright
Hate My Friends
But they're all I got
I hate my friends
They're just trying their best
Hate my friends
They're just hard to impress
Connor, not trying to be rude
But come back to Picks, fuck you, dude
Courtney, thanks for coming to my shows
And bring Favian even though he thinks it blows
You are my friends
You guys are alright
You're my only friends
It makes my life bright
Hey, Emily, how's DC
Have you been smoking your weight in weed?
I love B-Dawg, Wes, and everyone at work
Gigi, don't forget your self-worth
I love my friends
They're all I got
Love my friends
Life isn't as bad as I thought
I love my friends
They're always there for me
Love my friends
They make me very happy
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You Were The Only One
01:23
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you were the only one
who was there for me
there when I got lonely
whenever I needed somebody
the ghosts of my past
are floating above me
there's a fog inside my head
from smoking the words you said
and you were the only one
you were my favorite thing
I felt so vulnerable
when I first said, "I love you."
you said, "I love you, too"
it felt so real, so true
loving you was so
easy to do
you were the only one
I was the moon to your sun
I thought you'd set me free
until the day you left me
and I couldn't breathe
I couldn't sleep
I didn't think I'd make it
to January
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And This Is It
01:51
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January went by
I thought I would die
but I made it to summer
alone the whole time
I only smoke at night
when I'm the only one awake
so I can sit in the dark
and replay all our fights
I wish wishes came true
I wish I never met you
you brought out the best in me
I wish I was the one to leave
I hate that I have to hate you
but after all the shit that
you put me through
it's all I know how to do
I really want to call her
and it hurts so much
to see how happy we once were
and how we're not anymore
I've been taking all new meds
the side effects are awful
but they're no worse
than I am on a good day
I wish wishes came true
I wish I never met you
you brought out the best in me
I wish I was the one to leave
I hate that I have to hate you
but after all the shit that
you put me through
it's all I know how to do
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16. |
3 of Swords
00:56
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Car crashes
burning hearts
stabs in the dark
and I knew it was over
before the start
my showers have been cold
my house isn't home
I took pictures off my wall
wondering whether you cared at all
my voice is raw
my lungs are black
through a bruised jaw
I say, "don't come back"
I don't want you to go back
to the time we spent
it wasn't even worth it
in the end
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I imagine a place
with snow on the ground
but it never gets cold
when no one's around
pine trees twist and bend
shape shift in the dark
into a letter
I won't send
solitude is a friend
in our long last land
this is my only home
locked doors all alone
peace and isolation
from whatever world we know
my dreams are real
they contain my secrets
they aren't ready yet
we can't ever release it
like an old man in a hospital
tired and frail
awaiting the red ocean
to finally set sail
take a map to treasure
what we search for all along
learn the feel of love
put it in a song
walk a royal pathway
find your palace
your happy space
in an imaginary place
I know we're dead and buried
in 30 feet of concrete
where the trees once stood
walk passed, put up a hood
we are all desperate
for love and affection
I have nothing to say
it's not worth the mention
we are all animals
running and searching
for nothing or something
that we don't understand
follow your instincts
get lost in your head
chase the sun rays
and let yourself be led
let yourself be led
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My weekend cut short
for a saturday detention
such a waste of
my damn time
people here think they're
better than me
if they keep it up
I might believe
we are the outcasts
we're always going to be this way
there's no way to help us
and there's nothing to say
I ride the bus
'cause I can't afford a car
you're a fucking prick
or sucking dick
who cares if you're an honor student
you still shit your pants in kindergarten
I had a dream my past
came back to haunt me
I've lived my whole life
never trusting anybody
we are the outcasts
we're always going to be this way
there's no way to help us
and there's nothing to say
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19. |
Catch Up, Kid
02:43
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get up, kid. It's time for work
put on your suit, your pants are loose
tighten a tie like it's a noose
have fun at your 9-5
making music will get you nowhere
try being a businessman or crooked mayor
click away at your computer desk
drain people of life, lay them to rest
drugs aren't at war
it's the people who are poor
but if you're rich, you'll score
what else is money for
it's time to grow up
it's time to give up
conform to society
it's how it has to be
just catch up, kid
I walk down the street
I think I hate my friends
smoke all my weed
feel nothing but defeat
I contradict myself
in every possible way
like storm clouds on a happy day
all above memory lane
the candle burnt out
when we got the drought
read in the unfinished treehouse
on the road to recovery
on the road, hope there's no snow
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You Told Me Not To Worry
03:11
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I had a panic attack
in your back yard
you held me tight
all through the night
I can't keep pretending I'm okay
I tell myself every day
but nothing will ever change
you told me not to worry
you looked me dead in the eyes
said I would be fine
you're full of it
you lied
when you left
you did it over text
was I never good enough
that isn't love
you looked me dead in the eyes
said, "don't worry about that guy."
you're full of shit
you lied
you looked me dead in the eyes
said I would be fine
you're full of shit
you lied
you told me not to worry
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The End
02:35
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Strangeness In Proportion is Sean Cahalin, a singer songwriter from Doylestown, Pennsylvania.
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